2014 brought on a much happier but over-ambitious me and I failed at my New Year's Resolutions. Drink more water, exercise, write more letters, call more people, go to church....etc etc etc.
It was awful. I ended up more stressed out than ever. It reflected onto my family and even my own health. I developed a pulmonary embolism in my right lung and have now subjected myself to 6 months of blood thinners. It was a wake-up call to say the least.
No more birth control or cigarettes for this chick. I have way too much to live for.
It is 2015. I am eating some volcano fries and haven't wore a pinch of makeup since my last shift at the salon.
And I am SO happy. Seriously, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror at American Eagle and I thought, "wow, I have never looked better!"
That is when I decided what my 2015 New Year's Resolution is going to be; to be a happier more authentic Me! I have already started!
I am going with the flow of life. I wanted french fries tonight. Nailed it. I want my daughter to grow up loving herself for who she REALLY is. I stopped coloring my hair so dramatic and cut down on the makeup. Nailed it. -and I am beautiful! My inner beauty shines through!
Ryder and I went outside and ran around and around and around. (Arabella was sleeping, I had the monitor.....)
Now onto Ryan. I am sitting here staring at the screen wondering what words could possibly express what makes us "we". There are no words. Only beautiful images flowing through my mind of our time together in this world. There are no words to express the love and gratitude I have for him. He is my partner in this and all other lives, worlds, and dimensions. He has no place on my New Year's resolution list. He doesn't need to be there. <3
This is going to be a great year. Going with the flow, taking care of myself, listening to my gut, and developing a better relationship with God are going to help me build my family up to places we never dreamt possible.
Thanks for reading :0)
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